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                              hoa trang ngoc / zjjz firefly zjjz (đom đóm) 

                             hoa tím lục bình_5 / purple hyacinth flowers

                    Chiron_5 / the wounded healer

                     Once, we sang together on Earth, now you are both singing in Heaven. God Bless You. 

On Thursday, June 21st, I received a message from a friend at Paltalk, a chat room service, that dear Firefly had passed away. I had just left a neighbour's house in London where the family had recently lost a loved one. Having paid my respects, and feeling so moved by their love and courage, I crossed the road to my house, and opened Paltalk. The last line of the message read as follows
hoa trang ngoc (đom đóm) chết ngay 15/6 " meaning "flowers (fireflies) died 15/6" or "pearl white flowers (fireflies) died 15/6".

I cannot describe how those few words hit me. I wasn't prepared for them, nor had I understood the seriousness of poor Firefly's illness. My sense of both shock and grief was extraordinary. Of course, one is sad at the loss of any person that one knows. But I hardly knew Firefly. A lady, thousands of miles away in Vietnam, whom I had met in a virtual reality room at Paltalk, where we both sang songs, as did others in the room. Her kindness to me and support during those visits had so touched me. The more I looked at the finality of those words, the more I felt the loss. My grief over the past four days seemed to have been as deep as I'd ever known.

So, I started this webpage, in memory of Firefly, on the day I read of her passing. Only now, have I finally written this introduction. Just looking at the three pictures above, and the three images below, has helped me to collect my thoughts, and to try to make sense of the past four days. It's as if Time has stood still. Firefly made the effort to make her Paltalk Profile interesting, and consequently, her pictures made it possible for me to put up this webpage immediately. Thank you Firefly.  : )

It is now 3 months later, and Firely and I have made this page into a beautiful little home. It has grown, week by week with many additions since I started this introduction. However something has just happened that has made Firefly and me so very sad. Yesterday, I heard, from the same lady who told me of firefly's passing, that a dear friend of hers and of firefly, had also passed away. Hoa tím lục bình died on September 8. The news came as a great shock to me, and I felt a deep sadness for Hoa as I had felt for Firefly. Two ladies that had been so welcoming to me in their music room back in January, had gone to Heaven within 3 months of each other.

It was decided that Hoa Tim should be remembered in the same way as Firefly has been, and that she should share our little home. I haven't been able to find any photographs of Hoa Tim, therefore all the photos here are still just of Firefly.
Hoa Tim, welcome to our home where I know you will be very happy. Once we were two here, now we are three. : )  : )  : )

Pink lilies which Hoa Trang Ngoc kept in her Paltalk Profile folder. When I googled this picture, Hoa Lily Hotel, Ho Chi Minh City came up. I think Hoa loved this flower.
hoa trắng ngọc literally means "pearl white flower" also translated as White Jade Flower. This was my friend's chosen id when she first came to Paltalk in 2015. 
In 2017, my friend added a 2nd id zjjz firefly zjjz, and alternated between this and hoa trắng ngọc."đom đóm" is Vietnamese for firefly. Two beautiful ids.
                                                                                                                       How I met Firefly

1.  My first meeting with Firefly was on January 13th, 2018 in a Vietnamese Music room at Paltalk. I was looking for an early morning place to sing on a regular basis, and once again I turned to Vietnam. I had already found a lovely Vietnamese room for my afternoons which had been one of my few joys the previous year. 2017 had been a very sad year for me at Paltalk, both in Talking rooms and in Singing rooms as well as in one to one friendships. For whatever reasons, I had completely lost my way in an organization whose members topped 160,000 people from all over the world. Maybe I hadn't got over the death of a close friend at Paltalk who had made my life so happy in 2016. Who knows. So I entered Karaoke CANH CO QUE HUONG Karaoke.

   Above is a Paltalk Logo, below are a few emojies

2. There were about 5 or 6 people there. A lady was singing on mic, and there were two hands up waiting to sing. I typed " mc all " which is short for "men chao" ( hello ) My id was 'Chiron' – one of several I used at Paltalk. In a room of 6 people, there might be only 3 actually at their keyboard. I recall being greeted nicely, and began to feel good about the room. In Vietnamese Music Rooms, the screens are full of stickers and flowers. In no other country at Paltalk, will you find this kind of celebration as people sing. I myself love to support singers with flowers and emojis, so Vietnam is made for me. I eventually sang my song – Rhythm of the Falling Rain – which seemed to be enjoyed, and I received 2 private message requests which I accepted.

3. 2 message boxes then opened up on my screen. Sound is possible, even webcam is possible – but usually it is type-talk plus nice emojies such as smiles, flowers etc. They can be very effective if the 2 people do not speak each other's language. The 2 ladies who pm'd me were called hoa_trang_ngoc and hoa tim luc binh. The first name was Firefly's main id which she had used since joining Paltalk in August 2015. Hoa tim was always called Hoa tim.
Both ladies began our communications with a yellow smile emoji. I typed "hello hoa" and added my own smile, then 'thank you', and another smile. Hoa trang ngoc's first words to me were "VUI QUA CHIRON" which means Happy Chiron.  I certainly was - to have found this room. I replied "cam on" ( thank you ) the first Vietnamese words I had learned back in 2014. 

     Bài hát Cho đom đóm ( Song For Firefly ) 2018

4. Hoa tim wrote her mobile number but I lost it. Our main communication was via emojies rather than words. Hoa Tim was then  busy somewhere. Hoa Trang and I sang about ten songs each because few others had their hands up. I stayed about 2 hours. It was so sweet when Hoa typed "YOU THANK" as I was leaving, and I responded with "thank you". Hoa then typed THANK YOU and BYE YOU. I had hoped that in due course, I might help Hoa with some basic English if she so wished. Teaching has been my life, and often at Paltalk, I have helped those in the main Education section with their English Communication skills. I returned to the room 2 days later where Hoa had magically changed into Firefly - White Jade Flower had become đom đóm! Another 2 hour exchange of songs, and another sweet and polite private pm. 2018 was looking nice.

Oh my dear firefly, my pearl white flower

Thank you so much for January

Oh my dear đom đóm, my hoa trắng ngọc

Thank you for galvanising me

Here in your lovely musical  room

So many voices in such bloom 

Wonderful tunes filling the air

Enjoying our time with never a care 

Little did I know what pain you went through

Little did I know what would happen to you

If only you'd told me maybe i could have helped

And made it clear to you how much i felt 

Your first words to me, in that sweet pm 

Was just a lovely yellow smile

Then vui quá Chiron, yes I was happy

It was a very special time

The two hours sped by, so many songs

I wished I'd stayed  a few hours more

But two days later, I came back to you

And it was just, as it was before

Here in your lovely musical  room

so many voices in such bloom 

Wonderful tunes filling the air

Enjoying our time with never a care 

Little did I know what pain you went through

Little did I know what would happen to you

If only you'd told me maybe i could have helped

And made it clear to you how much i felt

Oh my dear firefly, my pearl white flower

Now all we have are memories

You've gone to Heaven, to join the angels

To sing with them and rest in peace

Below are some examples of Haiku Poetry. Haiku originated in Japan, and follows a structure of 3 lines - 5-7-5 - each numeral representing the number of syllables per line. Usually the theme is Nature, but I have chosen dear Hoa Trang Ngoh as my subject. I allow one syllable less or more per line. So a 5-8-4 structure might arise.
                                                                        Below is a beautiful Vietnamese poem on the left with a very poetic translation on the right
Firefly loved music so much. It's what we did back in January and February. Here's a selection of Videos from You Tube including the first song I ever sang in Firefly's room Karaoke CANH CO QUE HUONG Karaoke. One day I hope to find a recording of Firefly herself. How wonderful that would be. 
   Huong Lan - Chuyen Do Vi Tuyen                       Khánh Ly - Nối Vòng Tay Lớn           Hoang Oanh - Chi Ve Em Buoc Sang Ngang      Chiron - Rhythm of the Falling Rain
        Three lovely outdoor pictures.
think Firefly loved her grey hat.

The angels looked down from heaven

They searched for miles afar,

And deep within the distance

They could see a shining star.


They knew that very instant
That the star was theirs to gain,
So they took you up to heaven
Forever to remain.

Look down on us from heaven
Keep us free from hurt and pain,
You'll always be within my heart
Until we meet again.

Các thiên thần nhìn xuống từ thiên đàng
Họ đã tìm kiếm hàng dặm xa,
Và sâu bên trong khoảng cách
Họ có thể thấy một ngôi sao sáng.

Họ biết ngay lập tức
Ngôi sao đó là của họ để đạt được,
Cho nên họ đưa bạn lên thiên đàng
Mãi mãi để ở lại.

Nhìn xuống chúng tôi từ thiên đàng
Giữ cho chúng ta khỏi bị tổn thương và đau đớn,
Bạn sẽ luôn ở trong trái tim tôi
Cho đến khi chúng ta gặp lại nhau.
                                     Here is  Ưu Tư Lần Đầu  by Hoang Oanh with both the Vietnamese lyrics and an English translation.  A wonderful song of hope.
Anh ơi lỡ mai duyên kiếp không tròn
Lỡ đang vui đứt dây đàn
Thì nói sao cho hết đau buồn
Chỉ nghe chim sầu kêu trong đêm vắng
Hay một cơn gió thở than
Em ngờ tình đã lìa tan

Khi yêu mấy ai không ý lâu dài
Có nhau trong suốt cuộc đời
Tình chứa chan như bát nước đầy
Trần gian hay ước mơ nhiều thế đó
Nhưng chốn cao xanh còn kia
Chia xẻ đời biết đâu ngờ

Mang nỗi ưu tư từng đêm qua đêm
Mối lo đầu tiên trong tim
Biết sao rồi đây tơ duyên
Hôm nay đôi mình đang sống bên nhau
Sau này nếu có xa nhau
Đừng để thương đau

Anh ơi lỡ mai duyên kiếp không tròn
Lỡ đang vui đứt dây đàn
Thì tránh sao cho hết đau buồn
Thà như tan vỡ khi vừa gặp nhau
Hai đứa không chung đường yêu
Không để tình vướng u sầu

Hoang Oanh was born in Mỹ Tho, Tiền Giang Province. Firefly is also from Tiền Giang Province.
I miss the charm of life not tomorrow
I'm having fun playing the strings
Grief can be over-stated
Only heard the birds singing in the night
Or the wind groaning
I suspected that love was gone

When love does not last long
There may be several throughout life
Love  is like a bowl full of water
Whether in life or in dreams
Other green places and heights
Sharing your life knows it

Bring the worry every night through the night
The first worry in the heart
I know why this silk feeling
Today we are living together
Later if we are far apart
Do not be too hurt

I miss the charm of life not tomorrow
I'm having fun playing the strings
Avoid the sadness
It's like breaking up when you meet
Two children do not love together
Do not let grief trouble you too much
                            Today is the First of August - my birthday month.  Once again I am still 21 years old. I just can't leave that age. Maybe one day.
Here are some more wonderful Vietnamese songs which I have loved for many years ... dedicated to Firefly.  I wish I had some recordings of Firefly.  Maybe one day.

Hoàng Oanh - Ngày Sau Sẽ Ra Sao                Thanh Lan - Bang Bang (Khi Xưa Ta Bé)                Mỹ Tâm - Em Phải Làm Sao                           Hương Lan – Buon Khong Em
 Firefly had this lovely photograph in her profile of the Vietnamese New Year of 2017. The year of the Fire Chicken. To the right are two videos. The first one is information about the New Year. The 2nd one is a New Year song with a greeting  underneath.
Sang năm mới chúc mọi người có một bầu trời sức khoẻ, một biển cả tình thương, một đại dương tình cảm, một điệp khúc tình yêu, một người yêu chung thủy, một tình bạn mênh mông, một gia đình thịnh vượng.
     Chúc mừng năm mới !!

New year wishes everyone a sky of health, a sea of love, a love ocean, a love chorus, a loyal love, an immense friendship, a prosperous family.

            Happy New Year!!

                              Four more videos for Firefly and me to enjoy. This time, a wide range across the musical spectrum.

        Hương Lan – Lan Và Điệp 3                       Kong Ling –This World We Love In                       Erik Satie - Gnossienne No.1                                   When I Fall in Love

         MƯỜI NĂM TÌNH CŨ - LỆ THU                       Thanh Thúy - Happy Beautiful Day                            Một Cõi Đi Về - Khánh Ly                                 Kong Ling - Here's A Heart

    Hoa tím lục bình's section started on September 27 - the day after hoa arrived

            Hoa Tim loved purple hyacinths so much. Even her name hoa tím lục bình  means  Purple hyacinth flowers

    Pham Quynh Anh - Hello Vietnam           Pham Quynh Anh - Bonjour Vietnam            HELLO VIETNAM - KYO YORK (LIVE)            HELLO VIETNAM (HA LONG) - KYO YORK

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